Sober Story - Brock (@millenialcoholic)
Today we have Brock (aka @millenialcoholic on Instagram) here to share his struggles with alcohol and how he overcame them. I am so extremely grateful for the Mindful Times community and the support and growth we are experiencing through being transparent and sharing our stories.
Here is Brock's story.
"I stopped drinking because “drinking to have a good time” for me had morphed into something that consumed my mind, began to destroy my body and took the things I love the most in life away from me. Alcohol changed me as a person and changed the things I’m passionate about because I simply couldn’t do them anymore. It gave me a bad reputation as the "sloppy drunk" and friends didn’t really enjoy hanging out with me anymore. So what did I do? I’ll tell you what I didn’t do: I didn’t stop drinking. Instead, I isolated myself and drank alone miserably for about 8 months. Drinking almost killed me on numerous occasions. When I was 14 I was hospitalized for alcohol poisoning and actually stopped breathing and had to be hooked up to respirators. I flipped my car in high school while drunk and walked away. I was beat up, robbed and sent to the emergency room in ambulances 3 times in Chicago. One time I was found on the sidewalk knocked unconscious and robbed of my belongings because I was a drunk (easy target late one evening). Also, alcohol is obviously bad for you and kills people, so when I got cancer and started to think about what I was putting into my body, that scared me well. Losing my fiancé who I still love dearly is the one thing I’m not sure I’ll ever really heal from. When that happened and I tried to take my own life in March of 2018, you’d think I would’ve learned then. But it wasn't until I lost my job a few months later and spent the summer spiraling out of control, hitting rock bottom, and calling my mom crying, blacked out, telling her I needed help. Luckily, the friends and family I do have are awesome and have been such an amazing support group. They’ve been with me every step of the way while I did inpatient treatment for 17 days followed by 6 weeks of intensive outpatient. I found a sponsor right away and started going to at least 5 AA meetings a week and the rest is history (so far). People ask me all the time how I do it and my response is simple: I tell people-
my life is simply better. In ALL aspects. Work, relationships, health, finances etc.
I have more fun than I did when I was drinking because I am now present.
No more anxiety about what I did when I was drunk.
No more worrying about what I will do by the end of the night and then having to put out fires because I blacked out again. So, for now I couldn’t be happier with where I’m at in life. I have a new career, I am getting back into shape and competing again, and finding new hobbies that make me happy. Meeting a nice woman and having a couple kids of my own has and always will be the end goal and I’m happy knowing that that part of my life will come some day. One thing my sponsor told me very early on is to keep my sobriety first and everything else will fall into place. He’s been spot on so far, so as long as I keep doing that I know my life will continue getting better and better and for that I am grateful and excited for what’s to come! -Brock"
Who else has been there before? Who's experienced being the "sloppy drunk"? Who's had to go to the hospital due to alcohol? Who's hurt their health, friendships or career because of alcohol? Who's lost someone they love because of alcohol? Who has hit "rock bottom"?
I know I have experienced many of those things. While Brock's story is different than my own, it is similar in so many ways. I asked Brock to share his story because I want you all to know that you are not alone in your struggles. We are all different, have different experiences, but at the end of the day, we are all human and there is nothing to be ashamed about. No matter what you've gone through in life, there are other people out there who can relate to your story. If we come together as a community of individuals who are willing to be open, honest, vulnerable and transparent about our journey's we will build strength in numbers.
I am proud of you Brock. I am proud of you for recognizing that alcohol was no longer serving you. I am proud of you for overcoming your hurdles. I am proud of you for sharing your story. Stay strong my friend.
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