8 Reasons I Gave Up Alcohol
Updated: Nov 20, 2019
I am currently 27 and have struggled with alcohol for as long as I can remember. The more I share, the more I learn that I am not alone in this journey. That being said, I wanted to quickly share with you a few reasons why I wanted to quit drinking.
1. I didn't feel in control.
I am typically a pretty well disciplined person. I like to work out and eat healthy, but when it used to come to alcohol, it was the one part of my life that I didn't feel in control of. I felt that there was a constant internal battle between the angel and the devil on my shoulders with the devil usually winning the fight each time leaving me with feeling of guilt, shame and feeling weak.
2. I didn't like who I was becoming.
I grew up in a family full of healers (intuitives, reiki masters, therapists etc.) and always felt that I myself fell into that category. But with alcohol controlling my life, I was not able to fully tap in to these strengths. Instead of being the loving, nurturing, healing human being I believe I was put on this planet to be, I became the opposite. A hurtful, vengeful, spiteful, mean-spirited person. I never believed that's who I really was, but I knew that's who I would always be if I allowed alcohol to control my life.
3. No such thing as moderation.
This stands true for me, at least. It does seem that there are some people who can drink moderately and have a drink or two without going overboard. But when I think about alcohol as being what it really is, a toxin, then it makes me think that it isn't really possible for anybody to have a healthy relationship with alcohol because by definition it is a poison to our body. For me there was no moderation. As soon as I had one sip of alcohol, the end game was always blackout. The devil on my shoulder would take full control and become obsessed with thinking about where the next drink would come from. This made it impossible for me to ever be fully present in a situation.
4. It hurt my relationships.
As mentioned above, being intoxicated and not in control of my substance abuse made it impossible for me to ever be fully present. I would be engaged in conversations but either too drunk to fully comprehend or be obsessing about getting more drunk. This caused me to miss out on many valuable conversations and overall made people around me feel that they were unimportant to me.
5. It's unhealthy.
Point blank, whether you want to acknowledge it or not, alcohol is a toxin. It's not good for your physical or mental health. I felt like crap in both areas. It was causing me to hold on to water weight, even when I was working out like crazy, it was causing a tremendous about of anxiety and depression, it was slowing down my brain and much more. If you want to have ultimate health, you'll have to address and evaluate your relationship with alcohol.
6. I used it to numb the pain.
One of the biggest reasons I wanted to quit alcohol is because I realized that I was using it to numb the pain I hadn't been addressing due to past traumas. Suppressing emotions with alcohol only makes them worse and deeper and they begin seeping into all areas of your life. It's only a temporary bandaid and you can either choose to keep patching it up or remove it and deal with the root causes of your paining order to move forward.
7. I was lacking self-respect and self-love.
By not loving and respecting my own body and setting boundaries and limitations with my own drinking habits, I was allowing others to treat me with those same standards. If you are allowing a toxic poison to enter your body on a regular basis, you are likely allowing toxic people into your life as well. Once I cut alcohol out of my life and started having more love and respect for myself and my body, I started having higher standard of people I allowed in my life as well.
8. It robbed me of my memories and experiences.
I used to drink all the time. And by all the time I mean nearly any time that I wasn't at work which was nights and weekends. The little time that I did have to spend with friends and family was often spent under the influence, therefore, I don't have the most vivid memories of experiences I wish I had remembered. I want to love my life and the people in it and I want to remember and cherish the little time that we do have here on this planet.
These are just a few, and for each category I could write for hours. So I will leave you with just these for now.
I would like to challenge anyone who is currently struggling with alcohol to do this one simple exercise. Write down a list of pros and cons. What do you enjoy about drinking and what do you dislike about drinking?
Truly think about it. I think we are sometimes moving so quick through life that we rarely take time to check in with ourselves and out bodies to see how we really feel about certain things. This is an important one to acknowledge. If you would like to share or discuss your list with me, please feel free to send me an e-mail to
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